It Ain't Real

It Ain’t Real, Pt 1


You’re hiding ‘round the bend

So attentive

This midnight hour is so relentless

I’m like a sitting duck beyond the trenches

Singing the only song I’ll never finish


Tried and true

Wrong place and wrong time to run into you

No time to think

You beat me blind

Empty my pockets on the lot

And leave me there to die


There is no way of fighting back

In the crosshairs of a coward and a bat

Take my eye with the first shot

I’ll take the fall

And you can take all that I’ve got


But you can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away


In my finest hour

My only witness

Rusty old bent rims I rode in with

Hear you peeling off into the distance

I sing the only song I’ll never finish


No sight

I still got soul

Still got a mind that beats me blind all on its own

I still can think

And I still can feel

I know this pain

And it ain't real


I know this pain

Oh it ain't real

I know this pain

Oh it ain't real


You can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away

You can't take my breath away


(Take my breath away, take my breath away)


Like a sitting duck beyond the trenches

Singing the only song I’ll never finish


I still can think

I still can feel

I know this pain

And it ain't real


Like a sitting duck beyond the trenches

Singing the only song… 

That never takes my breath away







It Ain’t Real, Pt 2


She said don't look back 

She said don't look back

I never would


But I would change my mind

I would change my mind now if I could


Enjoy the hours outside

Before the day begins to shine so bright

How many days have gone by


Reliving it like some masochist

I’ve not begun to see the last of this

Tucked away like a villain

In a cage

I fulfill 

My only fate 

Against my will

While the days stand still

I can’t wait until

Every day stands still

Now I’m awake


How could I not look back

How could I not look back on that night

If I had just gone home

If I had just gone home, I’d be alright


This ain't some stitched up dichotomy

There's still a mind and a soul

I’m still alive

I’m still whole

This won't make sense no matter how I see

Eyes wide or eyes closed

I’m still alive, and I’m still whole

There’s still a mind 

There’s still a soul

I’m still alive, and I’m still whole

Now I’m awake


The open wounds they stitched

The open wounds they stitched me to this bed

What have they done to me

What have they done to my aching head


Must I return to the pins and needles

Relieve my mind

In somber sleep under the knife

I know this sleep, and it ain't real

For when I wake, I’ll wish I’d died

In the worst pain of my life

Won't go away, so hard I try

For when I wake, I’ll wish I’d died

Now I’m awake


I can't walk

Can't stay still

Another drop

Another pill

I can't see

I can't feel

This misery

‘Cause it ain't real

No it ain't real


It's time to smile for friends and family

Don't understand this pain

Pretend I am okay 


Don't tell me this road leads to recovery

With a show of hands

Mine's raised

Years worth of plans

Down the drain

Don't understand

My life's a waste

Pretend I am okay

Now I’m awake


Every hand they lend

Every hand they lend 

Can't mask defeat

For every prayer they send

Every prayer they send

Is blasphemy 


Wish I could say what I want to say

Your prayers don't do a thing

There ain't no God listening

So if you're gonna send a prayer my way

Might as well not send a thing

I’ll burn in hell before I need

Another prayer to put me to sleep

Well there ain't no God listening

Might as well not send a thing

Might as well not send a thing


Won't let these days become years

Won't let these days become years

Won't let these days become years

Won't let these days become years

Won't let these days become years

Won't let these days become years


This ain't my fate

No it ain't real

This ain't my fate

No it ain't real

This ain't my fate

No it ain't real

No it ain't real

It ain't real

No it ain’t real


She said don't look back

She said don't look back

I never would

I never would







It Ain’t Real, Pt 3


Every time I stand up for myself

I paint the walls a different color in my hell

In between the headaches and nightmares

I ask myself if you ever go there


Can you see me now

I’m inside out

Can you feel me as I hit the ground

Can you hear me screaming oh so loud

I only hope that no one ever has to feel 

The way I feel

It ain't real

It ain't real

It ain't real


Misery loves company in jest

I’m wrestling with the heartache in my chest

A change of plans

But I’m not here to stay

I’ll tear down every wall in this God-forsaken place


Can you see me now

I’m inside out

Can you feel me as I hit the ground

Can you hear me screaming oh so loud

I only hope that no one ever has to feel 

The way I feel

It ain't real

It ain't real

It ain't real


You took my sight

And left me weakened and defenseless

But missed the temple of my head by only inches

Although I’m prone to think that you fully intended

To take my life

You only took my third dimension


It ain't desperation that makes a man like you

It takes a lifetime, in vain, to cut you loose

The only comfort that vengeance lets me keep

To know you know a side of misery that I will never meet


Can you see me now

I’m inside out

Can you feel me as I hit the ground

Can you hear me screaming oh so loud

Well am I even in your memory now

Have you ever even had your doubts

Can you see me now

I’m inside out

Can you hear me

I’m screaming now


Well I’m screaming now!


I can't forget or forgive

There ain't no way to seek revenge

I only hope that no one 

Has to feel this way again


What can I do? I’m through

You're still out there on the loose

I have to pick and choose

I won't keep my eye out for you


Pillage the world

Well I’ll dish out a million times more

With all the love there is in store

I’ll settle up the score


You beat me blind

This ain't no eye for an eye

Turn my cheek 

And you can steal everything you can steal

I’m still alive


No it ain't real

It ain't real

You'll never feel the way I feel

No it ain't real

It ain't real

You'll never feel the way I feel

No it ain't real

It ain't real

You'll never feel the way I feel

No it ain't real

It ain't real

It ain't real

It ain't real